‘Gomora’ actor Ntobeko Sishi discusses contemplating suicide

Musician and actor Ntobeko Sishi, who exited Gomora as Ntokozo tells City Press that he was depressed and emotionally fragile for a long time, to the point of contemplating suicide.

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NTOBEKO SISHI: ‘MY AUNT FOUND A COUPLE OF MY SONGS’

The Gomora star Ntobeko “Sishii” Sishi revealed this about his new EP and how his aunt was devastated when she found his songs.

 

“My aunt found a couple of my songs where I was talking about wanting to end my life, and she was very disappointed. She approached me, gently saying, hey you have to go see a therapist. I tried to deny it, saying I am okay.”

The actor-musician adds that his EP is true, doesn’t sugarcoat anything and it was important for him to talk about how him upbringing was not the greatest.

The star previously revealed in an interview with Kaya 959’s Breakfast team Dineo Ranaka and Sol Phenduka that he lost his mother when he was six years old.

The trauma deepened when he got to the University of Cape Town, where he was engulfed by a darkness which even surpassed the agony that had been part of his life growing up.

“Now, I feel like I am at the point where I am actually fine with telling happy stories and being honest about my happiness. I belong. I’m not alone and neither are you. I love you and God bless you.”

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‘I LEFT GOMORA TO FOCUS ON MUSIC’

The talented actor Ntobeko Sishi, who recently exited Gomora also tells City Press that he did not write his songs to trend or be famous.

“I wrote this to heal, to truly deal with the things I went through in university, to tell those stories, and to close that chapter because I never did. The purpose of A Night In The Hills is to tell the story of my time at UCT, which is a university in the hills.”

“I wanted it to feel like a narrative piece of a night: going there being a Christian, losing my way completely, questioning everything, finding love, getting heartbroken and dealing with my suicidal thoughts.”

The 25-year-old adds that his mental health has improved and he left the Mzansi magic telenovela to focus on his music.

“I have been wanting to make that a priority for a long time in my life. I am finally at a place where I feel like I can do that happily, safely and comfortably, so that is what I am doing right now,” said Sishi.

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